Saturday, October 30, 2010

Pink Saturday -13-

Wishing you a lovely Pink Saturday on this glorious weekend with this tiny candy-like broach I made ♥


Don't forget to visit the lovely Beverly at How Sweet the Sound and the rest of the PS bloggers with all their beautiful pink/Halloween posts...



Bisous,
Erika

Thursday, October 28, 2010

When...


...will it stop?
I have this constant feeling of restlessness. Sometimes it gives me energy, but at times it also wears me out! I have this little dwarf running up and down in my soul not letting me settle. Which in a way is not a bad thing, because it always guides me towards peace, which is what I am seeking in this state of mind of mine.
I suppose that instead of fighting it, I should learn to live with it, and let myself get carried with the things I have no control of. That is what I have been doing for the past month, time that I have spent at home since I came back from Taize. Let things be, stop worrying and live. But again I feel like I am lacking something and this is the moment when I know I have to change something.

What and I supposed to do? Where should I go?

Calme-toi, I like to tell myself...

But something is about to happen.

It is just one of those times when you can feel IT coming...I can...

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Sunday reveries

One of the days the past week I had the sudden urge to literally dive into a huge pile of old wedding gowns. But I reconsidered because the floor was not clean enough for the dresses to be put there...That was the only reason.
My grandma had two huge sacs full of old wedding dresses in the attic, and time has come for me to take them down from there and use them in one way or the other. I have soooooooooo many ideas. Some to revamp, some to up-cycle or just recycling certain parts. Oh how I love pieces which have stories, my goodness! It gives me this rush of energy to think even for a moment that the dress I hold in my hand was worn by someone on their most special day...Ooohlala ♥

My lovely B. was modeling these tiny creations I made recently...


They can be found in my Breslo shop. And actually I've been thinking about setting up an Etsy shop as well. Any suggestions, recommendations; and anyone from Romania has any idea about what is the best way for shipping to other countries from here? We have such silly policies and surreal fees; that I do know, but maybe someone knows the trick, because I am pretty sure there is one, isn't there? :o)


Hope you enjoyed!
Bisous,
Erika

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Saturday, October 23, 2010

Pink Saturday -11-




Hope you enjoyed my soft PINK post. Wishing you a very happy Pink Saturday and don't forget to visit the lovely Beverly at How sweet the sound!
See you soon!
Bisous,
Erika

Monday, October 18, 2010

Beauté essentielles



Simple and handmade...Check it out in my shop :o)
Bisous,
Erika

Dear Diary

...to remind you to dare to sing, write and draw whenever you feel sad, happy or just simply in the mood... For all the creative little creatures out there, I created this necklace!




Click here to check out my online shop on Breslo.
See you soon!
Bisous,
Erika

Sunday, October 17, 2010

For the bride (cont'd)

Right before I left in June, I was asked to design a necklace for a bride. I already told you about it here, but I never got the time to show updates because I finished something like two days before I left and I still had a million things to pull together for my journey. So here it is now...


I made a couple of variations, but this third one was IT at the end... She wanted something really slim and subtle. An idea that I absolutely agree with!


Plus the bag-thing for the money the couple receive as gifts from their guests.


Does anyone have any idea/tutorial about how to change settings to have BIG pictures. This is the largest in my settings. And they are not large at all to me! Let me know, please! Until then you'll have to click on the pics to see them in a larger resolution. Sorry about that...Hope you enjoyed :o)


Bisous,
Erika

Touched by the angels

This is kind of a sneak peek of a project for Christmas...I know, it is quite early, but when inspiration comes I cannot tun it down now, can I? Of course, this has just been taken out from the mould, so this is not how it will look like, but just to have an idea...

Bisous,
Erika

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Pretty pottery

For the past two days I've been working on some new jewelry and tiny plates... Next week is the glazing part, we'll see what tuns out. See, this is what I love about this work, it never ceases to amaze and surprise me!
I was working with colored material, trying out a new pink (which seems red until it is taken out from the oven), but also the regular ceramics which I will color with the glaze. Stay tuned :o)


Bisous,
Erika

Tiny summer mirracles ~1~


Are you happy? Can you say that you wake up with a smile on your face being grateful for being able to breathe? What is it that is stopping you from doing that if you are brave enough to admit that most of the time you are so occupied with everything else that you forget to live?

I hated my life, hated myself for not being able to surrender to the world and let things happen. Be here and now. And through all this hatred I kept sinking lower and lower, being too proud to shout out for help, even being too proud to whisper for help. And even in this state I held my head up high saying "No problem, I'll handle it, I'll fix it." But I got to the point where I felt pain, even physical pain in this ignorance. And then I burst out crying and said "God, help me! It hurts so much, I can't take it anymore. Don't give up on me please!"

I used to go to church because that was the right thing to do and that is how a proper family is like, they go together to church. And I survived the hour because I love to sing the songs. But the rest I spent "somewhere else" thinking about some new project to do or funky recipe to bake. You have no idea how creative I could be...

Last Sunday I felt drawn to church. Because my heart was telling me to go. I cried through it. Not because I was so sad, but because I realized that all this time I've been listening not being able to hear...

We are unhappy about so many things, feeling miserable, knowing that we should change something. But then we think "Wait, what if I end up being in bigger trouble", and we settle for unhappiness. But what if, we'd change and do what our heart tells us to do and start over? It starts with being excited about the new. It follows by surrendering ourselves to it, not forcing what we desperately want, just letting go. And let ourselves be carried away in this state. Some might call this uncertainty. I now call it abandonment in the secret of life, that we cannot control so why fight it? It does not mean that you just go with the flow. It is so much more than that. It is following someone who knows better, knowing that he loves us how we are, shallow and narrow minded with tons of fears and complexes, but he waits patiently and comes to the rescue, but does not force himself upon us. He comes when we ask for him and waits patiently until we realize that he is the way.

Many things happened this summer. I lost someone very dear to me. And then I had to choose between returning to Romania and doing the "right thing", or staying and doing what my heart was telling me against all rationality. This was the first right step, seeing it from a distance now. I felt like staying would give something grand to my life... and I was sure I'd know the purpose of staying by the end of the three moths.
But then good old me came back and decided in the secrecy of her heart that this purpose must be love, I mean, what else could it be. The princess will find her prince, and they will live happily ever after, Yay! But God is not so transparent and obvious. I became so obsessed with this thought that I could not even see or think properly anymore...And then came sufferance and finally disappointment in my imaginary world.

I did not want to return to Romania, because I was so unhappy here. No one new this. Because my life was perfect, this was the image I liked to portray. It was nice and uplifting in theory. But it never really offered me any satisfaction. I was baring through my studies for my parents, it has been so uninteresting for me that it made me sick, but I continued telling myself "Be patient Erika, you'll do what you like after." Well I don't want to do what I like in a year. I don't want to postpone following my heat. It is here and now that I'll dare to live.

Yesterday someone asked my father in my presence whether he thought about taking me to some sort of doctor. I laughed my heart out at that moment. But it is in fact so very sad. Do we have to be insane to be able to be happy nowadays? Is that all we have left? If we stop following the crowd and do things because everyone else is also doing them and we actually start responding to our own hearts and maybe even dare be happy at the peek of it, we are immediately labeled CRAZY?
But you know what, I love it! And enjoy every moment of my insanity because I found the way to my heart this summer. The way of God!